I know if I am successful
if a white person says I am.
If a white man shows any interest in me,
I know I am desirable to anyone.
If a black man shows any interest in me,
It means nothing for some reason.
not for some reason.
If I am affirmed by my black friends
I feel good about it, confident even.
But if I am affirmed by a white person, professionally or personally
I know I’ve done something right.
Do I take advantage and assume that because we are kin,
share the same skin,
share the similar struggles
that their affirmation is to be expected?
Do I feel the need to work harder,
play the part more,
white people that I
Why do I feel more pleased with myself when my white friends and co-workers compliment my hair?
or my clothes?
than when my black friends and co-workers say it?
“Yes! They’ve accepted me as
one of their own”
“I belong in this white space
I belong anywhere”
Why does the idea of ending up with a white man feel
“See, if even white men find me attractive then…….
I am worth having”
“I’m the only person of color in my immediate department,
they must trust me
I’m doing something right
that these white people want me around…
Prolonged exposure does tend to result in Stockholm syndrome.